I think a lot of the time people have two different sides to themselves, almost like an angel and devil....or Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. One side is telling you to do one thing and the other side is saying the opposite. It sucks having to deal with these pests because it's hard to know which one is telling the truth.
My two sides conflict with one another about the things I want in my life. One side is practical....everything said makes complete sense with what people have told me. The things I know I can do for sure, with little to no doubts about it--I can get married, I can get a full-time job, I can start a business, I can live well, it can be easy, the other way is too hard, the other way doesn't make sense.
The other side......is scary. The other side says you can do it, it'll be hard but well worth it, you'll be inspired, you'll change people's lives, you'll be living by faith, you'll make a difference...you'll be happy and have everything you used to think was never possible.
It's a son of a bitch....balancing the two. What always helps me is imagining the person I'd be at the end of the two roads. The first one is fine with everything. Nothing is bad, but there is always something missing. The second one is the hardest, scariest thing I'll ever do....but the person I'll be at the end of it will be thankful that she never let the fear keep her from doing it. That those days she thought about quitting, she didn't. And I'll be thankful I listened to the right side.
"Feel the fear, and do it anyway."
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